So long as I lay still, and don't turn my head I'm fine. I can't even sit at the computer for very long, because sitting up makes the world rock. Even worse is the next day. Evidently I was continuously compensating for the motion that wasn't really there. Every last muscle in my body HURTS. I then managed to pass out and sleep for about 14 hours straight through.
Interestingly, when my vertigo problems stopped was when I suddenly had a ton of pressure appear in my upper jaw. I don't know if there's sinus, or maybe barometric pressure, or if there's some minor infection... I could make guesses all day, but the truth is, I don't know. What I do know is that the doctors told me most likely 3 months of this (I'm just over 30 days) and possibly as much as 6 months!
I do have a bruise that is breaking out on the bone of my eye socket. It's not on the side I was kicked either, but rather it's directly opposite the injury to the mouth. My dentist actually told me to expect it, because there's a LOT of trauma in my head right now. The bruise is working it's way up from the underside of the bone... or was that inside? I can't recall, but it did show up on my radiographs.
The problem is, that I can't get anything done! Normally, I have about 20 irons in the fire at any time, but lately, I can't manage to finish anything. Like now, I had to stop tracking records of payments in order to lay back and relax. While it seems weird, I can easily blog... just lean back, close my eyes, and type. Open my eyes long enough to correct the words underlined in red, and click on a few images and there's a blog. I guess all those years of playing video games were useful... I did learn to type almost 90wpm by feel!
The downside is, that I'm not yet ready to RIDE like this. I want to ride so badly! I can almost feel the rhythm of the muscles below me, the harmony of a good ride. It's like a craving that's making me crazy! I want to ride so badly, but I don't know what will happen if I lose my balance on the horse. With the fear of falling under the horse being still rather strong, I find myself chickening out. There's Doodles, and he's good, but of course he's decided recently that he's going to ignore anything but blatant bridle commands. Not what I'm wanting. There's Scorch, and he's amazing, but he's still a green stallion.... not my best choice (the green mostly). There's Ash, but she's Ash.... and if she decides to take a dislike to me not acting like me.... who knows what will happen. And of course, there's Jaz, but what does he do? Gets an owwie. Grr!
And I don't have any more video to edit... nor any photos to add to the website. I don't even know if I can manage to sit here long enough to DO that if I had the material. Instead, I'm acting like an invalid, even though I feel fine much of the time. Yet every time I get up to DO something.... it comes back. Reading little letters on the monitor is easier with a head tilt, so I know that it's not my imagination.
I feel like an old dog with vestibular disease!
It's just so weird to go from feeling GREAT to feeling like a complete invalid. And the change happens in mere moments. I can usually get an idea of when it's about to happen though. I feel funny in the head just before. Not light headed, not a headache, but something. It's like being exhausted - the eye heaviness, the desire to rest - with out the sleepy part.
I hate being broken. I'm used to healing very quickly. I'm used to being an active person. This lengthy rest I need just sucks. I'm trying hard though, to be a good patient and do what the doctor ordered. It still sucks.