A Note about Sugarbush Draft Horses
I see it over and over again, and no matter how many times it's said, it's still wrong. "Sugarbush Drafts are just an Appaloosa Draft Cross". Uh.... no. The Sugarbush Draft Horse was a breed created many years ago in Ohio. While the initial cross was made using Percherons to Appaloosas, in the many generations following, the breed has been solidified into a consistent type. Saying these horses are "just" a draft cross makes as much sense as saying that AQHA horses are "just" a Thoroughbred cross, American Cream Drafts are "just" a dilute Belgian, or that Morgans are "just" a grade.
Friday, September 2, 2011
Fear Friday: Meeting Expectations
I have found that I heap expectations on myself for others. As an example, I always feel that I should be up and at the barn EARLY. Now, I am not an early morning person - ANYthing but! It's easier for me to be at the barn early by staying up all night, then it is for me to wake up before 8am. My clients know that I'm not a morning person, and if I have to stay up late to get it done, it DOES get done. No one expects to see me mounted and working at 6am. That just wouldn't be fair to the horses (because I am GRUMPY in the morning).
And yet, I still feel this pressure to wake up earlier and earlier and be in the barn by the crack of literal dawn. Now, for me to hit the barn at dawn, that means that I'd need to be up and dressed at least an hour before hand, and push 2 cups of coffee into my system. Now, in summer I actually HAVE to be up early, or I will hurt my horses, and that's completely different then just my laziness. Normally (in summers past) I simply work through the hot part of the day. I work the wimpy heat hating horses early, and those who could care less in the middle of the day. It all works out, and I don't have to see a sunrise.
But all of this actually does relate to my riding and my fears. You see, these expectations are the same type of thing I feel in the saddle. I feel like I have to take the bad horse when we're out trail riding, like I have to go first through a scary place, or like I have to help deal with behavioral issues. I "am" the horse professional amongst my friends after all! Never mind that I could be scared to death to cross that ditch. I have a better seat. I'm younger. I'm... what ever it is at the time.
I know it's me, but still I feel like it's others pushing me. I've taken to the "deep breath" theory. Take a big deep breath, and as you let it out, just blurt what it is that you don't want to say. Whether that's "I'm not riding that horse" or "I'm terrified". It works for me, and makes me able to admit to my fears. And oddly, no one has had a problem with that yet. Well, except me.
I do so want to be the best at what I do, yet I know that I never will be. There's always some one younger, smarter, stronger, or what ever who will come and do it better. I don't need to worry about that pressure. Instead, I need to worry about being the most honest person I can be, and trying my hardest to be as good as I can.
Because in the end, if I let these self imposed expectations push me more then I can truly do or give, then I will merely end up as another short cut trainer caring more about the dollar then the horses. That's the last thing I want! I need to balance who I am, with what I feel I truly CAN do. And learn to be happy with the the result.